Steve
Jobs facing
cancer
On
June 12, 2005, Steve Jobs told three short stories about himself in his
graduation speech at Stanford University in the United States.
The first story refers to life
as a child. Entered college at age 17, but dropped out soon after. He didn't
know what he wanted to do next, and he didn't see how the university could help
him. Still, at that stage he knew exactly what he liked and didn't like to do.
After stopping school, he had more time to do what he liked. As a result, he founded
Apple Kingdom with his friends when he was 20 years old.
The second story tells that after he was fired from the Apple company he founded, he lost his power, but found that he
still loved his career and decided to start over. He later discovered that
getting fired from Apple was the best thing that ever happened to him, making
him feel free and creative again. Not only did he start a new company, he fell
in love with the woman who would become his wife.
My third story is about death.
When I was 17 I read a quote that went something like "If you live each
day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It
made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked
in the mirror every morning and asked myself, "If today were the last day
of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever
the answer has been "no" for too many days in a row, I know I need to
change something. Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important
thing I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life, because
almost
everything--all external expectations, all pride, all
fear of embarrassment or failure--these things just fall away in the face of
death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to
die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to
lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.
About
a year ago, I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning
and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a
pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer
that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six
months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is
doctors' code for "prepare to die." It means to try and tell your
kids everything you thought you'd have the next ten years to tell them, in just
a few months. It means to make sure that everything is buttoned up so that it
will be as easy as
possible
for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.
I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a
biopsy where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach into my
intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I
was sedated but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells
under a microscope, the doctor started crying, because it turned out to be a
very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the
surgery and, thankfully, I am fine now.
This
was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get
for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with
a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual
concept. No one wants to die, even people who want to go to Heaven don't want
to die to get there, and yet, death is the destination we all share. No one has
ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because death is very likely the
single best invention of life. It's life's change agent; it clears out the old
to make way for the new. Right now, the new is you. But someday, not too long
from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so
dramatic, but it's quite true. Your time is limited, so don't waste it living
someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living with the
results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions
drown out your own inner voice, and most important, have the courage to follow
heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become.
Everything else is secondary.
It was precisely because he had faced death that he realized what was the most important thing in life.
After Jobs passed away in
2011, his sister Mona Simpson attended the memorial service held for Jobs at
Stanford University and revealed Jobs' last words when delivering a eulogy.
Before Steve Jobs passed away, he first looked at Simpson, then at
his children, then at his wife, and finally at everyone and said: "Oh wow,
oh wow, oh wow."
There was a smile on his face, and everything remain
unspoken.